Something to Declare
In this piece from Dick Jones Patteran Pages he responds to a grim physical illness and the prospect of the debilitating effects of powerful immunosuppressants:
And yet, for all my hopes for future endurance, I need powerfully to disengage myself from both past and future as the principal determinants of present functioning. I need to locate that which will enable me to live fully in the moment, untrammelled by fear of what may lie ahead. Even as it unreels, time itself must lose its potency. I recognise that this breaking of allegiance to the great driving force behind Western existential consciousness requires a falling away, an abandonment, a relinquishing. I need to realise how that can be achieved and sustained.